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Saleh ([personal profile] mountain_sage) wrote2011-02-22 05:01 pm
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035 [Written]

[This past love experiment has left Saleh quite confused, to say the least.]

So this was it? It was just like Rydia said; I felt like a part of me was missing that I had not been aware of, and I had felt complete. But now that feeling is gone.

Is this what love is, an emotion that rises and falls like the sun?

[But there had to be a way to make it last, right? However, given how sudden this was, it still felt so wrong.]

Colette…forgive me. My feelings were inappropriate. Though I bear no ill will, I no longer feel the way I did. I beg your understanding.
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[identity profile] pathtoseele.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
It sort of feels that way, doesn't it?

[identity profile] eidolon-soul.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
The feeling is gone because the entire thing was rigged by the Malnosso. None of it was real, as much as it may have felt that way.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
Is that what love truly feels like?

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
I see...

Is there any difference in the feeling at all?

[identity profile] eidolon-soul.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
I think there is, but it's hard to explain without going through it yourself. At the very least, when it does really happen to you, it ought to be more than a fleeting obsession. Something tells me you won't give your heart away easily or abruptly.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
Mhm...you're probably right about that.

[More like he wouldn't know how to. At least, not in this manner. He's thinking about Kain's love for Rydia, and he can't imagine that Kain would have given his heart away so easily.]

This love requires a great deal of patience, does it not?

[identity profile] eidolon-soul.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
It can...but I think that's part of what makes it worthwhile in the end. Nothing truly worth having is easily attained.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
I would certainly agree. Once it is attained, it would change everything, would it not?

[identity profile] eidolon-soul.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
It often does. Whether or not that's worth it is up to you, but I would like to think it is.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose I shall find out in due time then.
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[personal profile] daisy023 2011-02-23 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
You too?

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[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 08:02 am (UTC)(link)
[An anonymous figure...curious.]

I beg your pardon?

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
You got hit too?

[Ceodore feels horrible for Saleh.]

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
From the experiment? Yes, unfortunately...

[identity profile] pathtoseele.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I think that's what loss feels like.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Loss? I highly doubt that I had anything to lose...

[Except for his dignity.]

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-23 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry.

But no, I don't think love is transient like that.

[identity profile] pathtoseele.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
I think you did if you feel that way. Love is like a filling. Loss is like... empty.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
Mhm...I don't know whether to be glad I had the experience of love, even if it was only temporary. Yet if I truly feel this way about another, I would not want for it to be transient.

I trust that you have been in love, Ceodore?

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
Still am.
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[personal profile] daisy023 2011-02-24 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
You have never felt love before?

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah. I'm glad.

[He won't ask about the details though. It seems too personal to pry into...]

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[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 02:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Not of this nature. Not before this experiment...

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
But having an experiment tamper with those feelings isn't right.

[Happened to them, but he's more thinking of Saleh.]

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Indeed. I may never know true love at this rate.

[Granted, he's never pursued it before, but he certainly doesn't appreciate having those feelings tampered with.]

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
You never know. I wasn't exactly looking for it, but I'm glad to have found it all the same.

[identity profile] mountain-sage.livejournal.com 2011-02-24 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Then again, love isn't something to look for, is it? Would it come to you in due time?

[identity profile] lunarianlegacy.livejournal.com 2011-02-25 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
I think so.
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[personal profile] daisy023 2011-02-26 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
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I sympathize. [REDACTED 15%] What caused it? Augmentations? Body modifications?
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